09.09.2002 - 9:11 pm
gah i need to rant.
okay, so school was fine...better than fine actually. 9th period was pretty shitty cause i started realizing that out of my gym class of 60+ people, none of my friends were in it. i mean there were some people that i've talked to before but it's just depressing sitting by yourself.
maybe it's this fucking heat. it was in the 90's, record highs.
my parents have been real shits lately...they're admitting that i'm smarter than them yet still don't listen to anything i say.
these "salud con leche" and "la leche" stickers and posters and coloring books came today that someone on the afi board keeps sending to everyone. i got a friend to order them for me but i didnt realize how much he ordered...so i get these 2 huge boxes of them...god my dad yelled. he's started swearing at me regularly now...like he swore the most he ever has at me in my whole life today. i guess its just that i'm older or something and can..take it? bloody hell.
so mom's taking the coloring books to school...they were in english..but i get the posters and stickers. someone gave me the idea of making collages on the posters, most excellent. stickers are easy to deal with. peel and stick...anywhere you please!
then...i've got my fucking period so there's all these hormones raging, and the paxil for the day has worn off, and everything...
plus...one of my cats is outside at the moment...and there's a fisher in the neighborhood. allright, edit, she just came to the door. thank god. i hate letting them outside at night...but my parents don't have a problem with it. !!! grahh. anyway, thank god she's safe inside. it was starting to remind me of the time my dog was missing for a week...that reallllly sucked.
okay...well that really released some stress. i'll talk about the good stuff now.
there's this freshman in a few classes of mine who has seemed mildly interesting. today in english we did a survey type deal and found that her and i are the only vegetarians and people that went to a concert over the summer. so we started talking. we have 3 periods together that come right after one another so it was like a continuous convo. she seems pretty rad, i'll see if she wants to hang out sometime. also, on that subject kind of, we spent 5 minutes in english talking about veganism! nobody knew what it was except my fantasticly amazing teacher. so. yeah. that was a plus.
i also had a nice convo with liz at lunch...i'm so happy we're talking regularly again. i didn't see her all summer...and before she was so wrapped up in her boyfriend...i'm almost glad that they broke up. it was just too fucking stressing of a relationship.
so...charlie is giving me rides home regularly, which is a relief. i think i'll give him like 15 bucks a week or something for gas, i definitely owe him something since i haven't been that great to him in the past all the time. i still kind of follow him after school, to his locker and whatnot, i hate that, it's always like i'm the one lagging behind, trying to catch up.
oh...and in gym class one of my ex's talked to me. we went out 2 years ago, it was brief and oh-so-punk-rock...but last year he was a real asshole to me. i don't know WHY he's started talking to me again, maybe he's realized that what he did to me last year was reallllly shitty...but he's in a pretty big shit himself. he's never seemed to have much assurance about himself, unless he was wearing some bondage belt or something. anyway, so we're right near each other in gym. i was just standing there in my "spot", waiting for them to take roll, and he's standing, facing me, a couple feet away. is he trying to make it as uncomfortable as possible for me?
oh yeah, i forgot to tell you that he got me drunk and also tried to fuck me...thank GOD i had enough brains left to keep him out. he's been after me since 6th grade...ha and he was "sooo cool" then...a fucking manic garth brooks fan. i dont know, he's an okay actor and not bad at writing but i'm sick of this punk rock bullshit he's spewing, trying to be all tough and whatnot. bloody hell, will he just give it up!!?
so...i'm really confused about the whole license thing...one person told me that you have to wait 6 months after you turn 16 to get one and someone else told me that you didn't...so i'm just going to go down to the DMV and check it out. i'm so pissed that they raised the permit age this year...but i guess that's not a bad thing since all you have to do is take some fucking easy test.
i can't say much more cause i have to save something for this english journal i have to write in. one of my online friends (who i hung out with when i went to SF) just found out that she owes her mom 1000 bucks from a fucking phone bill. jesus. no job or anything. so...that's kinda lame, she LIVES for her cell phone, but she should be getting a job most definitely if she wants to keep up that kind of bill in college and whatnot.
allright..i've spewed enough brain-blubber tonight.
